Friday, December 31, 2004

Happy New Year


Wow, this year has been wonderful. I can't believe it is over, so many things happened so fast. I just wanted to wish all my friends a wonderful, safe and happy new year. May this next year bring us much happiness and success.

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Tuesday, December 28, 2004

My First Christmas Alone.....

Well, I survived Christmas all alone in this new big city. Everyone called wondering if I was okay and of course I was. Honestly, this may sound bad, but I was glad to be alone. This past year has been so busy with the project, travel, family, friends, and co-workers it has been very hard to get some alone time. So this past month has been really nice just doing the things that make Brian happy. One of those things was joining the Blockbuster Movie Pass. It is wonderful, it's $29.00 a month and I can rent up to 3 movies at a time. Each time I am finished I bring the movies back and exchange them for 3 more. I have watched so many movies, probably not healthy, but since it has been so cold what else is there to do?

OMG, so I move to the city where I can use my wonderful 40G Ipod and what happens a month into the move…..IT GETS SICK! Gave me some damn folder exclamation point error…WTF!!!!! Anyways, she is currently laid up at some Apple Hospital somewhere all alone. I pray for a safe return.

I love my new apartment and building, I am on the 14th floor of a 32-story building. I have always wanted to live in a high-rise since I was a kid. Ugh, I love my life right now, the only thing I need is a husband. I have met a few people, but not Mr. Wonderful. I will meet him in the Spring…..I hope!

Monday, October 04, 2004

Weekend Re-Cap

Ten of my closest friends and co-workers went to Mai Kai for Dinner on Saturday to celebrate my birthday. The restaurant was great, made to look like a Polynesian village. At the end of dinner there was an amazing 45 minutes show with dancers and fire. I had a great time and got a 40G IPOD. I love my friends.

After dinner Aaron and I had tickets to go to Red Ball, which was tragic. When we got there I think maybe there were 30 people left. Bitter since we paid $40 a ticket, we stayed for a bit to listen to the music. Moved on to Alibi's where we ran into some friends and went to Coli to dance. Danced my ass off, met a cute guy from Puerto Rico named Julio....yummy! A little to clingy at times, but a great kisser.

Sunday, I just rested all day. Rena made dinner and Jen made me a cake. Watched Jack and Bobby and Desperate Housewives....LOVED IT.

Friday, October 01, 2004

I'm Back....

It has been a while since my last post. I had a wonderful time in Scottsdale, AZ. Then went home to Dallas, TX for my 25th birthday which was wonderful. Spent time with family and friends. Came back to Fort Lauderdale on Sunday and had taken 3 days off to re-coup from my travels.

We got our 60-day notice yesterday with an outline of my severance package. So I hope to find a position in another department here in Fort Lauderdale, if worse comes to worse, I can always go back to Dallas and return to the position I left.

Aaron and I went out and danced last night, so I am tore up today. Did not sleep much at all and today is just creeping by.

About 10 of us are going out for dinner on Saturday to celebrate my Birthday since I was not in town, can't wait. Aaron and I will be going to RedBall after that, so I will once again be tore up on Sunday. Miss Tina is wearing me out!

Saturday, September 18, 2004

Why did I drink so much....

I want to watch porn....
Guess where I spent a gorgeous sunny Scottsdale Saturday? Give Up? My hotel room hung over, it was bad. After a night of partying in a new city with 4 straight girls, I was in need of some gay porn. Picking up the remote I press the Menu button, which was not working. I turned the TV off, then back on....checked the wires on the back and then thought they might not have it turned on in my room. I phoned the front desk and told them my Menu button did not work and I could not watch porn...I mean "Movies". They said they would check and call me back. I patiently waited...........waiting..........waiting........phone rings. Sir, your room is setup to watch "MOVIES" are you sure you are pressing the MENU button....um let's see....YES! I will send someone up. WAITING........WAITING...........WONDERING IF IT IS WORTH IT.......WAITING....Knock at the door. Poor old maintenance man who did not speak English, gave me a new remote, I tried the new remote and NOTHING. Tried to communicate with him, and got nowhere. I was beginning to get mad when I realized it was not his fault. Told him thanks for trying and he told me to keep both remotes...Um ok, bye! Called the front desk, and they still think I can't press the MENU button......IRRITATED, I said nevermind, don't worry and hung up. This all took 45minutes to get NOWHERE! Couple minutes later there is a knock at the door. It was the head of maintenance Bob. Bob tried everything and guess what? No movies, the only option I have left was to change rooms. (All of this work just to watch porn) I call the front desk and ask for a room close to mine since I had 14 days of cloths with me and was hung over. They said, the only room we have is on the 5th floor....I am on the 3rd over looking the pool. Pondering what I should do I told her I would decide and call back. I looked out the window to see if there was anything cute at the pool and it was all fat old people so I decided to start packing and change rooms. Two hours later I am finally in the same position as when I first wanted to watch porn....I approach the remote and YES YES the menu button worked. I went straight to the adult titles and ordered the all day adult superpass.....it was only straight porn, but it was porn and I was in HEAVEN!

RA
Deborah had mentioned that her fiance was out of town so she would love to treat me to dinner on Saturday night, so I accepted. She called around 4pm to make plans, and I was in the middle of watching porn when she called....wink! She told me to get ready and drive out to her house so we can ride together. I jumped in the shower, got ready and drove over. Her house was AMAZING!!! Her fiance owns his own consulting firm, so she was loaded. She gave me the tour, met her doggie, had a strong drink and we where out on the town. She took me to RA, a sushi bar that was FABULOUS, not to mention it was the BEST SUSHI I have ever eaten! After a few drinks I was ready for a gay bar...I think she was ready for bed, but felt bad that I was going to Charlies alone, so she decided to come along. I warned her that Charlies was a gay country western bar.....she smiled with excitement...LOL!


Friday, September 17, 2004

Scottsdale Day 3

Happy Hour
So I go out to with the girls on Friday night, they invited me to happy hour, so I accepted and only planned on being out for a bit, so I could really enjoy the gay bars in town. I figured Friday would be the best night to go out since I had to work on Sunday. We leave and get to Dos Gringos at a little after 5:00pm, I rode with Traci from the office since I needed to run by the atm. It turns out she has a gay roommate and we have the same birthday....get out of town. We hit is off immediately. We where joined by Nicole, Gina, and Deborah and the drinking games began. When I travel to unfamiliar offices I always try and play my straight card. Basically the girls new I was gay, but just waited until I came out of my shell and was comfortable enough with them. I found the best opportunity was when we where talking about plastic surgery and Dr. Rey from Dr 90210, they asked if I watched it and I replied with yes and Dr.Rey is so hot. There out on the table and I was free to have a good time.

Nasty Cracked-Out Stripper
Dos Grigos was so cute, picture a Mexican restaurant outdoors with multiple bars and water misters everywhere....VERY CUTE oh and right next door to BS, a local gay bar. All eyes where fixed on Ariel, a stripper with huge tits that where literally spilling out of her shirt. She was drunk and had been drinking since noon, but was also on something else.(wink). When I asked her she replied "I took something, but not sure what it was" I was like Crystal and she was like um yeh...I am like share...ok not really with co-workers. She was so TRAGIC I almost felt sorry for her. She was so drunk that she kept walking over to the trash can and you could hear everyone whisper....look she is about to lose it.....POOR THING. We call her over and introduced herself to us and chatted for a bit, until she moved on for another shot. Her server kept serving her even though she was drunk and she was the entertainment in the bar....SAD.

The Swingers
A guy sitting next to me Todd introduced himself and his wife to our table, he was also joined by his twin brother whom was staring at Ariel's tits. They had also been watching miss crackho, so it was easy brining up conversation with us. Todd's wife was from Canada and so was Gina, so they where instant best friends and started to sit next to each other discussing the best way to get a VISA, so we decided to talk to the twins. Very cute guys, they kept trying to figure out if I was gay...saying "I tried to get her to show her tits for you, sorry" I replied with that is sooo not my type. He said oh really.....I am like oh yes, look how I am holding my Vodka Tonic...Waiter I will have another please. Turns out they where swingers and his wife thought I was hot and spent 30 minutes trying to figure out if I could perform with both a man and a WOMEN...she was like can you get it up...I was like is she for real. She finally moved to talk to Gina and I started drinking more. Todd was showing a picture of his wedding in Maui and asked me if I would like to see, I said NO...I want to see a picture of your cock. Everyone laughed for how forward I had been, but was confused by the looks he was giving me and wanted to see if he two was interested in me. Five minutes later he passes me his palm quietly and says here. It was his HUGE COCK in between his wives tits. OUT LOUD I STARTED LAUGHING and got everyone's attention. I turned to his wife and said "I know why you married him now" She smiled and high fived me. Needles to say, I was invited to a Hot tubing party tomorrow night with some other couples...NO THANKS, but I will sleep with your husband.....WINK.....

Way To Many Drinks.....
OK, I was drinking like a sailor and don't remember much. We left Dos Gringos about 9:30pm, went next door to the gay bar for an hour and I remember nothing. I woke up in my hotel room about 10:30am the next morning with a major headache. I was pleased I had made it in ok, but pondered how I had gotten here. I call Deborah and she was like OMG, we had so much fun. I was a little embarrassed to say I did not remember but asked how I got home. She said sweetie me and Gina took you, and she started laughing, I was like what. She said that I got in the car and they asked where I was staying, I replied with the Marriott, turns out there are 4 on north Scottsdale road and we went to all 4......TRAGIC, I had so much fun though and the girls are wonderful.

Thursday, September 16, 2004

Scottsdale Day 2

I have not decided if I like AZ yet. Needs more color; everything is burnt orange or red. It is hot, but a dry heat so Fort Lauderdale feels worse. There is 1 cute guy to every 3 which is not that bad. Cute shopping everywhere I turn, the whole city is like a huge mall. They have Whataburger…yummy my favorite fast food place back home in Dallas, open 24 hours (prefect food for after the bar), low cal and low carbs…NOT! One of the biggest downfalls that will pose as a huge problem tonight is that THEY STOPPING SERVING DRINKS AT 1am....what what what!

So last night, I get to the hotel and decide I want to work out. I change cloths and I get distracted by the room service menu, since I was busy and did not leave for lunch I decided I was REALLY hungry so I ordered Chicken Tenders w/ranch dressing, Cheese Sticks w/marinara sauce, and DOUBLE TROUBLE CHOCOLATE CAKE. After I stuffed myself, I put the room service tray in the hallway and forgot that the room locks. DAMN IT, I locked myself out. I went down stairs barefoot, blue adidas short, and a ROUCH RACING shirt….no one could tell I was gay. So with my luck at the counter is the guy that I have been cursing from my balcony….I tried to cover my face, but had to turn to get a good look. Oh, he is a perfect specimen, tall, tan, and fit. Our eyes met and I smiled my friendly I want to come to your room and have sex with you smile. Walking back to the room smiling I thought “was he looking at the counter girl or me, it had to be me, we kept staring at each other the night before” Once I was in my room I thought go to the balcony and see if he comes out. Anyways, that was becoming to much work so I decided to take a bath, talk on the phone, and met up with my good friend Ambian…love her she puts me right to sleep for at least 8 hours.

Speaking of Ambian, I had to change my doctor to FL, so I asked for the prescription and my doctor said…..”You are too young to be addicted, try to only take them on the weekend”…..OK whatever, right the prescription lady and oh by the way, cute Coach Shoes. I was thinking in my head, I don’t have an addiction to sleeping pills, I think an addiction would consist of taking 2 pills a night and I only take one. Who is she anyways?

Tonight looks promising, going to Martini Ranch across the street from the office to have a drink with the CUTE associates in the office, the only ones with personality and then I will be checking out a few of Scottsdale’s gay bars, can’t wait. Have not had a one-night stand in a longtime, but now even if I did and I may or may not…NO ONE WILL EVER KNOW!!!! Ok well I will tell everyone but anyways, I won’t fell badly since nobody knows me here and they wont gossip about me leaving the bar with some strange man or boy. Details in the coming days….stay tuned.

On another note, back when I was with my 1st boyfriend Jason, I was 18, he was 30…I had always been attracted to older men and I had asked him if that would change. He said yes, when he was younger he was attracted to older men and around the age of 25 it changed…..well in the past months I have found some cute young boys that I would not mind tearing up. Hmm, I am so horny!!!!


Wednesday, September 15, 2004

Scottsdale, AZ.....

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Flew into Phoenix last night, love it, so beautiful here. I have never been to the desert before. I got lost trying to get to the hotel. I stopped 3 times and each time I was headed in the wrong direct….over it. Checked in, got a room overlooking the pool a big plus, already spotted a cute guy checking me out from the balcony, hmm will have to investigate.

Everything is going ok in the office, the Operations Director is such a pain, but now that I met his staff I understand why. Six days left until I return home to Dallas, can’t wait! I might how to go have a drink tonight…..

Monday, September 13, 2004

Hurricane Update…..
Upper Management is in a meeting determining when we can fly home tonight. So irritated with these damn Hurricane’s. It is just so hard to sit and wait and not know what is going to happen. Anyways, I guess we are going to fly back to Fort Lauderdale, and then I turn around and fly out on Wednesday to Scottsdale, AZ. Oh well, I will get two more nights of restful sleep in my own bed.

Light at the end of the tunnel……
It looks like this project may end…..as of right now we have 4 conversions left until Spherion will be fully converted to PeopleSoft. So looks like I will either have another position or will be standing in the unemployment line, let’s hope for a new position!!!

Feeling Depressed…..
So my birthday is around the corner and I seem to gage everything in my life by my birthday each year (i.e. achieved goals, personnel growth, health). This year I am feeling more depressed since it is my 25th birthday. I guess my friends say I am too hard on myself, but that is hard for me to change. I just feel that I should be more stable than I am now. I don’t have a boyfriend, I’m ALONE and it sucks. I have not stopped PARTYING; I have slowed down a bit. I have gained weight since I have been on this project, I blame the company for giving me a food allowance, but that is now excuse since I could order better food. I guess I have an excuse for everything, but that is not the point. I still live paycheck to paycheck and don'e understand why when I pay no rent, utilities, gas, & food. I have no savings and I start and stop my 401K every couple of months…..they make it to easy to do that. Well I guess I am just a kid, but I have to ask myself when will I become more responsible as an adult? When will I own something of my own? When will I be debt free….LOL…..NEVER! When does life get easier, can anyone answer that? I guess you could say I am not looking forward to this birthday.

Thursday, September 09, 2004

Bitch Session.....

So I just got out of a meeting and they informed me that once again, due to the treat of hurricane Ivan we are being sent to Atlanta to work next week. E-mail from manager:

As you are aware, you are part of the team that will potentially dispatch to another area to continue business operations in the event that this facility must close due to Hurricane Ivan.
The Business Continuity Team has been monitoring Hurricane Ivan. It is a category 4 hurricane with some projections that it may hit some part of Florida by Sunday.
Updates on the status of this building will be made as they are available. If the building is to close and you are to relocate to the alternative site in Atlanta, it is anticipated that a small number of you would travel on Friday and the majority on Saturday. Travel arrangements are currently being made on your behalf for the trip.


Please get with me should you require time to prepare yourself or your home for the relocation. We remain hopeful that the storm will not cause any significant impact to our operations or long-term closure of our building. However, as this is not predictable, we advise you to prepare to bring enough clothing to be away for approximately seven calendar days.

So not to complain or anything but this sucks for me. I have no clean cloths since I just got back from Atlanta and I am exhausted from travel already.

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My Schedule for Upcoming Weeks
Sept. 11th-15th Atlanta, GA
Sept. 15th-22nd Phoenix, AZ
Sept. 22nd-26th Dallas, TX

My B-day is in 13 Days, Quarter of a Century Old!

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

It is nice to be home again.....

I could not get up this morning, I was so tired. Had a great day at work playing catch up. Everything was going good, we had a good day at work and got a Thank you from the top for driving to Atlanta, supposedly by choice, I was not given a choice I was told, but I guess it sounded better that way...Here is the e-mail and we got 2 comp days, YIPPIE!

"On behalf of the Business Continuity Committee, I want to thank you for the tremendous effort you put forth this past weekend. We knew when we created the BC Plan that our biggest exposure, yet most critical piece, was relocating associates from the CSC to the AOC. Your willingness to travel and phenomenal teamwork displayed, proved our plan and more importantly kept the business running.

Again - You did an outstanding job! THANK YOU VERY MUCH!


I left work about 7pm, and had to run by Wendy's. I was so craving a #4 Big Bacon Classic Combo, well when I get to the order menu there was a sign posted saying "No Meat, Cheese, or Salads due to hurricane. UGH, Damn it! I had to get the Crispy Chicken Nuggets instead.

We way over prepared for this Hurricane, I packed and put almost everything up, not doing that again. I started to hook up the DVD, AV, & Tivo to the TV and it took forever, 3 hours later when I had all the cords tied nice and neat I powered everything on and TIVO said not signal.....count to 10 Brian....took a deep breath and almost cried when I realized I pulged the Yellow Video cable into the Audio hole....LOL

I missed TIVO, oh and Aaron asks me.....Did it record our shows on Sunday....LOL I did not even answer....GOD LOVE HER!


Tuesday, September 07, 2004

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We still have not been told when we can book our flights! We had dinner at my VPs house last night and we asked her. There are 2 flights on AirTran (don’t they crash) that are not booked for Tuesday, 11am or 5pm.”Well, lets just wait and see how things are tomorrow”. OK, so she says I need you guys to go into the office in the morning. To do what? We can’t really do much from the Atlanta office, so I checked my e-mail and read blogs all morning. Let me tell you I was productive! We get a call at 10am from our manager asking us to book the 5pm flight home. We scramble to book the flights and leave to get back to the hotel and pack. We leave at noon, and have to go by Marshall’s to get an extra piece of luggage since Rena brought everything she owned. 12:30pm we arrive at the hotel to start packing, takes about 45 minutes to pack and check out. On the road at 1:15pm to return the car….oh and I forgot to tell you that what is left of Hurricane Fances is over our heads, it had been raining all morning. We get to the airport at 2:15pm to turn in the car, we pull up to National and it was pouring, so we all get out and scramble to get our luggage and head to the bus that takes us to the terminal. Once we arrived at the terminal we organize our luggage. Here is what we had taken:

Brian
One large piece of luggage to check and one carry on.
Aaron
One VERY large piece of luggage to check, 2 carry on items, and his Whinny The Pooh. (Had to bring him to make sure he did not drown or something like that.)
John
One garment bag and one piece of luggage to check.
Rena (Also known as High Maintenance Barbie)
Two VERY large pieces of luggage to check, 1 duffle bag of all her pictures, 2 full shopping bags (falling apart from the rain), 2 down pillows, 1 pink stuffed animal dog named Penelope, and 1 Coach purse.

It was a pain lugging them through the airport, I was hot, wet, and irritated! We got to the ticket counter by 3pm, only to find a hella long line. My patience level was low and I was on the verge of snapping when they pulled us into another line that was much faster. Once our luggage was checked we proceeded to security and the Atlanta airport is huge, this must have been the largest security area I have seen since I have been traveling. The line was going quick when again we where pulled into another line, I was like man this day is getting better…..um, NO. Since we only bought a one way ticket we where singled out as I guess potential terrorists. The line took almost an hour of twisting, turning, and complaining from the 4 of us. I tried to entertain myself by cruising the hot guys that walked by. That is one thing that I will have to admit, Atlanta has some HOT MEN! After an hour of waiting, and nothing but an ugly TSA agent patting me down to look forward too I was once again, in a bad mood. I was dreaming of my apartment and bed, when I looked at my watch and it was 4pm, yes, 1 hour until our flight leaves. We have just enough time to grab a bite to eat and board the plane when I look up at the monitors with much DISMAY; it showed our flight was delayed until 7:55. OH, NO MAM!!!! We got home about 10:30pm and it was 85 degrees in the apartment, YUCK!!! I unpacked, took a sleeping pill and went to bed.

I am ready to go home......

Wow, the W Atlanta is amazing!!!!

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Well I am still in Atlanta, we transferred closer to our Alpharetta office staying at the W. We got a suite with the corporate rate for $125 and it is fabulous. Can't wait to get home, down to my last pair of undies. No damage to our apartments, no power though. Hope to fly home tonight or tomorrow.

Friday, September 03, 2004

Update from Atlanta....

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In the words of Cyndi and Celine……We Drove all Night……to get to Atlanta. Let’s back up a bit. Wednesday at 4pm my manager let’s the fly team know that arrangements have been made for us to travel to our Atlanta corporate office to get out of the way of the Hurricane, I was happy that they where worried about my safety. Well it comes out that since we are on a project here, we are a liability to the company. So I am thinking, well this will be good to get out of the path of the Storm. So my Mom calls, Dramatic Barbie, oh god, it is going straight to ATL. We packed cloths and tired to put up all our personal belongings up, and get this, we are in corporate apartments and they don’t have renters insurance on us, anything that is not Marriott is not covered, FUCK THAT. I just pray for my computer with all my music and pics, dvds, and a new addition to my family TIVO are OK. My thoughts and prayers are with them. We had to drive since we could not get a flight out. Ugh, over that drive….Where is my limo?

We left Fort Lauderdale about 8pm, the tolls where suspended on the toll way and traffic was surprisingly light. We could tell it was picking up since gas stations where running out of gas. It was a 10-hour drive to ATL. I was joined with 3 other associates Aaron, Rena, and John. We had a good time on the way up, but we where tired. We got to the Westin downtown about 7:30am. I love the Westin the heavenly beds are to die for. I went straight to bed. We did not anticipate coming into the office on Thursday, we figured we would just have a great weekend and party in ATL, well management did not have the same plan. We get a call from our manager at 10am, asking if we could make it in at noon. Ok, we did not get out of bed until 11am and we are an hour away from Alpharetta. OVER IT, we where like, we will get there when we get there.

We got into the office at 2pm, and we where the only ones that had made it in from corporate. We where immediately put on the phones to field the calls from all offices nationwide. OMG, it was crazy. We left around 6pm and were asked to be back at 8am. We did not even get a thanks for driving all through the night, getting a few hours of sleep and coming into work. FUCK YOU SPHERION. Anyways, I am over it back at work and excited to go out tonight. Depending on how bad Fort Lauderdale is hit; we might be working from here for the next 2 weeks. There is even talk about moving the project to ATL. Oh Lord! Here is an e-mail from my co-worker Jenny who is with her family in Melbourne

E-mail from Jenny
“man this place is a MAD HOUSE. i'm
glad you guys got out of here. i'm worried about mary
& karen though, i feel bad for leaving them.
its such a chore to get this place ready though. i've
been helping my dad & mom all day, and we're still not
done. we were helping the neighbors too. its crazy. my
dumb ass brother and his dumb ass friends want to each
take their car and head west. it is bumper to bumper.
why they are all taking their cars i don't know. i
gave him some sleeping pills so hopefully he'll sleep
through the night and change his mind. we've all been
fighting with him. he's so damn stupid, not to mention
selfish. he's gonna get stuck on the road in his piece
of shit car.. and then what. not to mention, not
sticking around to help out here. he won't be allowed
back in to town for another week or so. i just can't
believe we are related. wtf??
i am very scared, but happier to be here- otherwise
i'd be a nervous wreck. i'm glad that all of you got
out though. you wouldn't believe the traffic now. i'm
going to volunteer saturday night/sunday with the red
cross if we don't have too much to do here. my mom is
already planning how to rebuild the house if it gets
knocked down. how crazy is that!!
this is definitely blog worthy- i bought film to take
some pictures. hotels are booked solid, gas stations
are out of gas, and banks are out of money. ITS
CRAZY!!!
take care- i love you guys : ) don't worry if you
can't reach me by phone. the towers will probably go
down. i'll talk to you before saturday.
maggie mae says HI!!! she's scared”!!!

Wednesday, September 01, 2004

DAMN IT, FRANCES

Corporate is sending the FLY team to Atlanta.....Damn Hurricane. ;-(

Monday, August 30, 2004

Trip to NYC / Elgins 23rd Birthday



Thursday
Aaron and my flight landed at 4:45pm at JFK. Elgin and Neil had already landed and met us at the baggage belt. It was so nice to see Neil and Elgin, I had not seen them since gay Disney and it put a huge smile on my face. I love my sisters…..We got on the AirTrain to Howard Beach to catch the A train to Mikey’s, and I was like ladies, sit back and relax, because 181st is a long ride. Instantly we all hit it off, laughing and catching up I was so excited about this trip. We got to Mikey’s at almost 7pm and was worn out form the train ride, but there where many hotties on the way up. It is so funny, for some reason we kept sitting underneath the subway maps on the train, and this total hottie was looking at us. Neil, Aaron, and I thought he was staring at us, LOL; he was looking at the map. We ended up talking to him and he had a thick…..thick COCK…I mean a thick Boston accent, we asked him where he goes out in NYC and he said he was meting his girlfriend and she was going to take him out. I was like whatever he is so not straight, but now days you can never tell with all these metrosexuals. We started our night off with a few drinks at the apt, and then went to Stonewall, cute and was cool because of the history. We ended up leaving and going to Splash, I hate Splash so I know we all had to have been drunk to go there. Needless to say we got tore up, bought some BC Powder (http://www.tragic.com/ ladies) from a guy off the street and went home….BITTER!!!! Mikey had to work the next morning and I don’t know how she woke up, but she did.

Friday

OK, talk about hung over, we woke up and showered around noon. When we got down to the subway, I almost lost my cookies, it was humid and I started sweating thank god the train was cold. We went to Tiffany’s to surprise Elgin with his B-day gift. We walked around for a few hours and ran into an old friend from Dallas, how ironic is that. A city of almost 8 million people and we run into Stew Bear from Dallas, to funny we talked and moved on. When Mikey got home from work, she was not smiling, we went over all the tragic events of the night and laughed….(Aaron having the Britney Dance off with some queens, the confusion between the bar we thought was Detention, was really Stonewall upstairs). Night 2, We headed to Opaline to have some drinks and dance for a bit, drank a little to much, everyone kept buying each other shots, I was like thanks I just had 3 of them, but what’s one more. Miss Mikey was mugging down with Dr. Pokey Pants and honestly I was confused everyone was kissing someone and then it was like everyone traded for sample….so confusing I think we ended up kissing about 40 people that night. I met a cute guy named Christopher, we kissed, fell in love, and then everyone was ready to go….go figure my luck. Daniel comes over and says we are leaving and I was like BYE…..LOL. Chris was a little drunk so we said our goodbyes with our tongues and then the girls headed to Boys Room. Now, I think it is almost 2am by this time and we are feeling good…More drinks and dancing and then I look up and Mikey is dancing on the box with his shirt off and 3 guys are trying to take his pants down. Miss Mess, clean up on aisle five and it did not help that she had a jock strap on underneath the pants, more incentive for them to get her pants down…..god love ya Mikey. So we found that there was an after hours with Junior Vasquez and Neil was rounding everyone up to go there, when, know on really knows what happened, but Daniel and Aaron get into a fight outside of the bar…..IT WAS DRAMATIC! Screaming, wrestling, and some not very nice words where said. The groups split and went our separate ways. Neil, Daniel and I ended up going to Junior’s B-Day bash, which was fabulous. Got home around 7am and crashed.

Saturday
We lay around the apt. all day long, got ready for Dinner at Intermezzo, cute and very trendy in Chelsea, loved it, so cute. Saw AIDA staring Deborah Cox and she tore it up. I was so wanting her to end the show with her dance mix…..she is an amazing artist. After the show it was off to the ROXY. It was so funny all day everyone was like, I am so not drinking tonight and don’t you know as soon as we get inside we were at the bar filling up with free drinks. Oh and then came the GOLDSLAUGGER shots (who’s idea was that) they almost maid me puck….and Neil and Mikey, well they were not as lucky as me. We tore it up on the dance floor. Elgin and Aaron went home EARLY, Neil found the DARK room where she was a TRASHY HO…..She was a mess; needless to say she got her rocks off. I so never thought that really happened in clubs; boy did I learn something new. Neil and Mikey left when they got sick and Daniel and I left around 4am. One of the best things about NYC is Gray’s Papaya; you can get the special for like $2. So we headed in that direction, and took forever since they where preparing for the damn republican convention, but all the NYC cops where hot, so I was not that upset by it. Miss Daniel saw a White Castle next door and decides it would be better, YUCK, if you have not had it DON’T, tasted like SHIT, and I look over while I am eating my SHIT burger and see this girl cutting corns off of her feet… PUCK…OH, TAKE ME HOME NOW, I have seen too much for one night. I think her corns smelled like the shit burger….

Sunday
We went to the park for a bit and then started packing to go home, got on the train a little late, Elgin ended up missing his flight to Dallas, so he met Daniel back in the city. Neil’s flight was postponed due to weather in Atlanta and had to stay the night there. Our flight was late as well and we got in at Midnight. It was crazy, it was messy, but most of all it was fun and nice to see my sisters, I LOVE YOU ALL MORE THAN YOU KNOW. Yag-Yag
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R.I.P.


Today is a sad day, this morning while getting ready for work, I mean, I just was not paying attention, and that caused the life of this little guy....I am so sorry...please forgive me...I never ment to hurt you....I am so emotional right now, lets bow our heads in prayer. Posted by Hello

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

Quiz

Interesting Quiz..... Take it and send me your results!

Here are my results:
You are a XPYG--Expressive Practical Physical Giver. This makes you a Roving Spouse.You are magnetic, charming, and impossible to resist. You have no problem with approaching the opposite sex -- it just comes naturally to you, and the thrill of warming up a stranger is one of your great drives. Still, very few people really know you. You don't just *feel* misunderstood -- you are. You are probably nursing a heartache that you never let on.

You're calm in a conflict (almost *too* calm -- a more emotional partner may wonder why you're not more engaged) and quick with affection. Fighting makes you uncomfortable, but as you avoid direct conflict your frustrations can manifest in the cold shoulder and passive-aggression, which is no better! Still, you make a loving, doting parent -- giving more love than discipline -- and your children prefer you.

Like an XSYG, you put so much thought and effort in what you give to your partner that you feel dismissed and unappreciated if you don't get the same in return. You also give and think so much that you can also talk yourself into cheating -- physically or emotionally -- and this can lead a cycle of conflict, guilt, conflict-avoidance, chilly atmosphere and then more cheating. But you'll stay with your partner in the long run from guilt and a desire to please.

You've got to open up! You express and give so much of yourself in other ways -- don't be afraid to express what's bothering you.

I'm only being so hard on you because you remind me of me.

Of the 3234 people who have taken this quiz, 14.7 % are this type.

Misty May...Gold Medal Winner

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Here is Aaron with Misty May, the Olympic Gold winner for Team USA in volleyball. We met her at a Marlins Pre-Season game. She was there for her fiancé Matthew Treanor who plays for the Marlins. She was super sweet and invited us to a volleyball tournament VIP style....We are so happy for her to win the GOLD. Way to go Misty.

On another note......
OK, help me understand this. One of my dream cars is an Mercedes S55 AMG, and I saw one on my way to lunch. It had an Equal Rights sticker on the back, so I had to speed up to see if he was cute, he was beyond cute....total hottie. So I smile and look down and saw his rims.....omg... ghetto spinners. WHY DO PEOPLE THINK THOSE ARE CUTE? He lost all his sex appeal after that.


Tuesday, August 24, 2004

It's Time for a Revolution....

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OK, I rented Cho Revolution DVD and if you have not seen it you must. I gave it 2 thumbs up. She had me laughing so hard that I could not catch my breath. The best part about her is that she has a strong message regarding equal rights that is really touching and POWERFUL. One of my favorite lines from the movie is "Who would not want a gay son, you know he is not going to be shooting up the school, because that would get in the way of yearbook”......she had me LMAO the whole time.

On another note, not much going on with me this week. Went to an amazing Dinner last night at Houston's with the group. So much eye candy, I swear every waiter was so damn hot and we luck out and get a DAMN GIRL! She was sweet, so we bribed her to make Dan (hot waiter with a shaved head, Daniel you would of died he was so hot) to bring our food out. I think he was a little uncomfortable when he came to the table, but I just thought if this makes him uncomfortable then I am glad he can't read my mind right now.

I am so into TIVO right now, I can have a life now and not worry about missing my favorite shows. I have been totally loving BRAVO right now, found out that in Sept. they are going to be airing shows from the UK Edition of Queer Eye......YIPPIE. I just love English men, and those accents are to die for. All weekend I watched the Gay Weddings and Boy Meets Boy marathons. I so love Dan and Greg’s wedding it was to die for. I met Greg in Dallas not to long ago, he was in town promoting his new Gay Family cruise line that Rosie was backing, but I just heard that went under.

Two more days until NYC, I am sure I will have much to talk about when I return.

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Tomorrow Jenny's gets back from her parents and we are going to watch the Wonder Women DVD Box set and I have never been so excited, I know, I am crazy, but who does not love her? I am going to have to practice my spins to prepare for the show....LOL

Sunday, August 22, 2004

I Love TIVO



I have now joined the world of DVR, bought TVIO at Best Buy. A great deal was only $99 bucks can't beat that. Why did we not have this 5 years ago.
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Saturday, August 21, 2004

Anniversary Party 1 Year Strong....



We had out 1-Year Anniversary party since we all started the project. Went to Pier Sixty Six, the roof top bar. You can really see some amazing views of Fort Lauderdale. Pic of all the boys, I just love our boys on the project, they are they best. After a few drinks we went dancing at Coli and came home.
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Tore UP Tracy......



Had a great Friday, Aaron and I were off from work so we just relaxed and went sopping at Aventura Mall. Saw Exorcist The Beginning, was not as scary as the first one but I still jumped a few times. I think anything that has to do with the devil is scary. Friday night we were feeling like going out, so we decided to go to Cathode Ray to have a few drinks. Before we left I had already had two drinks and was feeling GREAT. We get to Cathode and the crowd was cute. Met a REALLY cute lawyer named Christopher, he seemed sweet, he introduced us to his friends and we hung out for a bit. I was feeling great and I just kept drinking, Aaron was like slow down sister, and I was like um, I am fine. Oh lord I should of listened....here is where the night takes a turn for the worse. I run into an old boyfriend Jason, he so got on my nerves, but was lonely and just moved down here, so I guess he feel for me and I just wanted to cuddle, is there anything wrong with that? Anyways, I am drunk and he see me and hits my leg, I was like OMG, JASON.....HOW ARE YOU, I WAS JUST TALKING ABOUT YOU TODAY...BLAH BLAH BLAH, he looked cute and I was drunk so I tried to kiss him and he was like, Brian I am not going to play games with you. I was like whatever; I just wanted to kiss you Jason is that so bad. Anyways, we ended up leaving and following him to Coli where I continued to get hammered. Aaron was like Brian you are so tragic right now I was just having fun. Well I can't remember much but what I was told, that I was mugging down with Jason on my dance floor, grinding my ass into his crotch.....then I guess I can't remember but I started dancing with some ugly old man, whom I guess I thought was Jason, but was not....Aaron yells at me and I give him a drunken look, and he was like OMG. To get the old man off me he walked over and told him to get his hands off my boyfriend, thanks sister for saving me, I then proceeded to walk over to Jason, kiss him and then left. Aaron was like where did he go, and Jason was like he said he was going home. TRAGIC TRAGIC TRAGIC......The only thing I really remember was waking up Saturday morning, naked, I guess I started taking my cloths off as soon as I got home, there was a trail all the way to my bedroom. So my lesson, is don't drink without crack...lol!
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Thursday, August 19, 2004

The Diva's Prayer


Armani
Which art in Neiman's
Hallowed be thy shoes.
Thy Prada come
Thy shopping done
on Rodeo
As it is in Paris.
Give us this day, our Visa Gold,
and forgive those who charge interest,
against us. Lead us not
into Penney's
And deliver us from Sears.
For thine is the Chanel,
the Gaultier and the
Versace for Dolce and Gabbana
AMEX
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Tragic Moments in South Florida # 2



So it is the Friday after we arrived in town for the project. We are exhausted with a week of intense training, and had partied with our straight associates all week long. It was time to get a dose of the fabulous gay south Florida nightlife. After work we made our way to the Galleria to do some shopping. Now, appropriate attire for Dallas gay bars is jeans and a nice tight shirt. For some strange reason we figured south Florida would be a little more dressed up. I bought nice cute pair of ripped jeans with a black button up diesel shirt, to wear with some black diesel shoes. I was a little pale, so I figured I would go tan before we went out (spray tan). I ended up double dipping, which means you tan in a bed first which opens up the pores in your skin and then you get the spray tan. It is supposed to make the tan last longer and go deeper into the skin. I think they where just trying to get more money out of me. I was told with my tragic skin tone, that 6 minutes would be good. After I finished my tan, I went back to the hotel to get ready.

We where told from some co-workers the best places to go was Georgie’s Alibi first and then to the Coliseum afterwards well we did not get to Alibis until almost 11pm, and it was tragic, I was so creped out. I told Aaron, um I can’t go in their…he was like come on, we will ask someone where to go next. We walked in like we owned the damn place and asked where all the cute boys go after this place, and they where like um I guess Copa…. or what are you in to? I was like what? He (aka old creepy man) was like I mean do you like to just drink or do you party? He was like the kids that like to “PARTY” go to Colisum….I was like Coliseum it is.

We pulled up, only to find that you can only Valet Park and it was crowded at the door. Now, we are not pretentious at all….ok we are, but can you imagine pulling up to a new bar in a RENTAL, and a 4-door Alero, can we say TRAGIC! After parking and going inside, we felt totally over dressed, I don’t think anyone had their shirts on, and it was College night so there was twinks and tweakers everywhere. Turned out, no one was friendly, and SUPPOSEDLY NO ONE PARTIED, I thought that was wired since everyone was drinking bottled water. I met some cute guy that, when I asked him if he partied (hence the water bottle in his hand) and he asked me if I was an under cover cop and said no he is a recovering alcoholic, YEAH, WHATEVER. We got tore up as usual and went home, the club was cool, but very clicish.
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PART 1 Happiness is a journey not a destination....

For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin ~ real life. but there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. at last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life. this perspective has helped me to see there is no way to happiness. happiness IS the way. so treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one.

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

Words to live by.....

"Watch your thoughts, they become your words.
Watch your words, they become your actions.
Watch your actions, they become your character.
Watch your character, it becomes your fate."

I love Wednesday's it means the week is almost over, and it has been a long week. I am also excited for Elgin's birthday bash in NYC in 8 days; we are going to have a blast. I love NYC; have been there 5 times since January.

I am back to my workout routine in the mornings, got all messed up when they closed the gym for renovations, but enjoyed sleeping in for the past week. One of my favorite cardio machines is the cross-country ski machine, well this morning someone was on it, so I patiently waited for it. Once he was finished I waited for him to leave an I walked over to the machine, as I was walking someone else was walking up the stairs and met me in the middle of my workout machine and gave me a dirty look, I almost had to knock her out, but I just smiled pointed at the machine I wanted and jumped on it. It was too early to be giving people dirty looks, and I guess I could have been a gentleman and let her use the machine, but I am a stingy queen and I was there first! Oh, and I guess the Olympics are motivating a lot of people to swim, there where like 3 old men at the pool this morning swimming laps, someone should tell them not to wear Speedos EVER, but to each there own.

Tuesday, August 17, 2004

Olympic Fever...


I think I might have Olympic Fever, I can't stop watching them, and my man Michael Phelps won another gold medal tonight (you go boy). All this talk about swimmers brings back memories of my favorite Olympic swimmer, Greg Louganis. I can't remember why I think he is amazing, but as a boy I had the biggest crush on him, oh, and when he had that interview with Oprah and came out of the closet. I just new one day we would get married, ok not, but still is not just greatest.

Does anyone else get emotional when the Olympics come on or when an American wins a gold medal, I just can't hold back the tears I LOVE AMERICA?

On another note......When Does Harmless Cruising get CREEPY?
There is a Target in Fort Lauderdale, that if you go around 8ish, there are more gay couples than straight, and a couple of singles (me). Now, no matter where you go in the store you are bound to get cruised. Singles and couples with wondering eyes, everyone sizing you up. I felt like I was at Cathode Ray for pick a trick night. I saw a cute guy that was cruising me, so I made eye contact and smiled and went about my shopping. He proceeds to follow me over to the electronics section staring and smiling every time I looked up, I thought he was cute, but since I had a long day was not interested in playing this game, so I moved on. I'll be a bottom, if he did follow me down 9 aisles and across to the other side of the store, stopping on the aisle that I was on and acting like he was interested in something on the same aisle. About 15 minutes of this and I was ready to leave the store without my items. Now, I could have said hi and gave him my number, but I was already aggravated with him and wanted him to move on. Ugh, I thought move on Creepy Cruiser. In one last desperate attempt to get rid of him I went down the children's aisle and put some diapers in my buggy....he gave me a weird look, I shrugged my shoulders and moved on.... at this point when I looked back he was gone. I continued to shop, and get this he ends up in the same checkout line behind me. He kept looking at my purchases I bet he was wondering (where are the diapers). Anyways, that was just too much for me tonight; after I check out I hurried to my car, as to not see him again in the parking lot. I feel so violated. Have you ever had a moment like this? Posted by Hello

Monday, August 16, 2004

The WORST Conversion Ever.....

Dear Dalmatian Diary- Dell Conversion 8/15

So this morning started off ok.... but @ 4pm we find out that there are 680 orders that unbeknownst to us FELL OUT. Let's check in with the CATs, and see how they're doing...:

April: this is the longest day EVER
Kelly: This SUCKS!
Vince: I'm going to get tore-up tonight!!

Processing... Processing.. Processing...

Back at the home front...
7:00-8:15 pm (at random intervals) I just got that error!, did you get it? (ALL CATS)

7:32pm Brian Davis says: I'd like to make a reservation, BITTER party of 1, all the way in the back.

7:35pm FUCK OFF KS (Brian)

7:36pm THIS SUCKS (anonymous)

7:37pm THIS REALLY SUCKS (anonymous)

7:38pm FUCK THIS FUCKING FUCKERS- Amen (John)

7:39pm we are hoping that we'll be out before midnight bc we didn't bring a cake

7:40pm.. apparently there's beer in 202 , I'm still questioning why we are here

8:15pm EVERYONE OUT OF THE SYSTEM.. we are using our .. hurry up and wait skill... can I put this on my resume?

8:20 pm we are all starting to stink. John has just informed me that he has not showered today.

8:30 pm Vince has just made the executive decision that it would be easier to send manpower signs to all of our offices.

8:32pm Brian is running up and down the aisle yelling.. is it the pushes or the pulls

8:33pm John has told Karen, if she asks him what he wants for breakfast- he's going to kick her ass.

8:35pm we are all making song lists to give to Bobbi , in hopes of getting fired.

8:40PM We should just move the office Wastc to Tenn. and that would take care of the 600 and some worksite problems that are out there!!

8:41PM I have had lunch and dinner here.....shall I put in my breakfast order too??

8:49 pm I WANT TO PUT IT IN MY BLOG NOW! (brian davis)

9:00:pm we have a choice... stay till god knows when or come in at 5:30am 1/2 chose morning, 1/2 chose to stay

9:05 pm Bobbi- is this Spherion or a Malaysian Nike factory? (John)

9:14 pm Kelly has had a change of heart , since the system could only have 12 people.. some got a free pass.. kelly was one.. "this is the BEST day EVER!"
other lucky bastards include... April, Jered, - there was much high-fiving going around

12:38 am Vince hands off the conversion

5:00 am 6589 message: Conversion Analyst please report in as discussed last night at 5:30am - FUCK (12 conversion analysts)

5:01am this is the only time the CATs have seen this hour sober. (besides John)

5:10am Jenny discovers that its too early for Maggie Mae to take care of business

5:30am Jenny discovers its too early to be creating assignments

5:50 am Sanchy scores major points buy bringing in breakfast.

5:55 am John celebrates his 29th birthday to the minute as Jenny promptly smacks him on the ass to get him going, much like the dr did

6:05am its way to damn early for the backstreet boys (Sanchy)

8:48 am Brian is complete and happy, this is his last CR3 Conversion!!!!!! Yippee

Sunday, August 15, 2004


Maggie May Posted by Hello

Relaxing Weekend

I had a great weekend. Aaron is out of town for the conversion, so Jenny and Maggie May stayed with me to keep me company.

We went to a house warming party on Friday night came back watched a few episodes of Sex in the City and went to bed.

Saturday, We watched a few movies and cried....(The Prince and Me & Love Actually). I love romantic comedy's, if you have not already seen Little Black Book, you must. I give it 2 Thumbs up. After the movies we went shopping at Aventura Mall, OMG, have to go cruising at this mall more, the guys are way hotter than at the Boca Mall. We spotted this hottie in Bloomies and he followed us into Gap, where we lost him, damn it. We are not creepy stalkers, besides he followed us. After a uneventful shopping trip we met my friend Kelly in downtown Hollywood to have dinner and drinks. Downtown Hollywood is cute (Hollywood, FL) I loved it a cute downtown seen with some trendy places to eat. Had a great dinner said our goodbyes and went home.

I am reading Naked, by David Sedaris, he is so FUNNY, tried to finish, but I feel asleep.

Today I am at work.....over it, but this is my last CONVERSION so I am so happy. Took us a little over a year to finish the part of the project. Hopefully today will be smooth, until then........

Thursday, August 12, 2004


On this weeks episode of the Real World....
Today was not the best of days, got into a huge fight with someone whom I thought was a close friend, but turns out just to be a co-worker. Over the past year I have made so many new relationships with associates on the project. Some of those relationships have turned into great friendships. Some of these friendships I had hoped would last a lifetime, but don't always turn out that way. Life sucks sometimes, but I guess you have to keep rolling with the punches. It is sad sometimes when you invest so much into a person to get nothing in return or to finally see how they really are. I guess you could say her TRUE COLORS shined through brightly today.
Rena and I had a disagreement about how we have treated each other over the past couple of weeks, one of my issues is with her was honesty with me. Her issue is that I have not been treating her very nice the past few days and honestly I have not, because this issue has been eating away at me. So we where down at a co-workers cube visiting and she made a comment about something I said, I turned around and called her a mean word and we went back to our desks. Fifteen minutes later a get a long e-mail that pissed me off, so I wrote back and got everything off my chest, she in return said she is done with me, and that is fine nothing I can do but move on. Sucks when you speak your mind sometimes saying the things people just don't want to hear how they shut off. Honestly, I feel better about the whole thing, I guess some friendships are not worth fighting for.
It is very HARD to maintain some of the friendships on this project only because we work with each other 10 hours a day and since we relocated for this project leaving friends and family forces us to also feel the void of social activates after work. This sometimes is a recipe for a mess, maybe we need some time apart. Well hopefully my day tomorrow will be better, until then......
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Wednesday, August 11, 2004

Hurricane Charley

Well another boring day, not much going on at WORK today. The highlight of the day was Charley turning into a category one Hurricane and its projected path is South FL. Now, before I get excited and host my first Hurricane party, every hurricane that was projected to hit SOUTH FL last year missed us and hit the Carolina's (note to self, don't buy ocean front property in Carolina). So we will see how is pan's out. The good news is that I am a Conversion Analyst, converting over 600 offices to PeopleSoft, well that is not good news but. We have a huge conversion this weekend in which we are converting one of our largest clients (100 Million $ Account), I don't think we are ready, but upper management does not care, so the only thing that might stop this conversion is CHARLEY. Hmm, is it bad to want a Hurricane to hit, I guess I should ask my therapist, I will get back to you guys on that one.

I have a friend in town tonight, she rolled of the project a couple of months ago, and for some reason I am not that excited to see her. NO, it is not that I don't want to see her I just don't want to see some of the people that are going out with us tonight (i.e. evil bitch dog from hell) oops did I type that. Well I am already upset, because we where supposed to go to O'Heras on Las Olas. Now, it is one thing to go out and have drinks with 20 straight co-workers, and have a gay bar right down the street so when I am drunk I can sneak out and go flirt with GAY MEN. My co-workers don't understand, but who cares, anyways. To my dismay they fuckin changed the venue, to some trashy bar called Fox and the Hound, ewww, who would want to go there anyways. So who is the bitch that did not want to go to O'Heras, well it was Gayla so I am not going to hate, I might just not show up so there. I just don't understand the straights sometimes.


Tuesday, August 10, 2004

Quarter of a Century Old.....

My 25th Birthday is just right around the corner, Sept 23rd to be exact and I read this the other day and can totally relate to it right now in my life....

"Being Twenty-Something"

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't.One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you.Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person.One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap.Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself...and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it.We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.


Where do I begin....

OK, so here I am in South Florida, Fort Lauderdale to be exact. South Florida is not my home; I came down here from Dallas for a company project that was supposed to be over in April of 2004. We are now approaching 2005, with little light at the end of the tunnel. I am not complaining I am setup in a good situation that most would die for. They pay for 2 trips home a month (home for wherever I Choose in the US), pay for company car and gas, pay for food and my apartment. My only complaint is that I get bored easy. We have a lot of down time right now, and searching the internet and reading blogs can only take up so much of the day, then there is a 2-hour lunch, I read my yahoo listing, then I guess you could call me a cubicle whore, I make my rounds about 3 times a day. I go from cubicle to cubicle and try to have interesting conversion, but it is hard when I am gay and very focused on my interests only. No, I mean I care about straight people I do, but sometimes they just don't understand my interests nor do I want to understand them, when I can barley understand myself.

I lucked out with this position, because it just so happens that my Best Friend also works for the same company and got the position also, so he is here with me as my home away from home, my sister, my gay bar hoping sista BritBrit. What would I do without her, maybe get some sleep, but it would not of been half as fun as she makes it. More stories about her to come, she is a mess, but I love her.

I really wished I had started this journal a year ago; I have so much to catch up on. Oh lord where do I begin, I call these chronicles “Tragic Moments in South Florida.

#1
August 4th 2003 we leave for Fort Lauderdale for the start of the project. So BritBrit meets me at the airport LATE, I get so stressed about getting to the airport late especially since 9/11 it takes FOREVER to get through security. She shows up in ripped up Hollister Jeans, flip flops, a gay t-shirt, with a sweater tied around his waist, Marilyn Monroe shades, and this is the best part, with his Winnie the Pooh Bear in his arms smacking his gum like he is Britney Spears. I am like we need to be professional here, who knows how many people we will meet that are flying in for the project. I am the uptight one and she is the relaxed one with not a care in the world.
This is the first time I have had to travel for work and it was very rushed, we both forgot to make our car reservations, and just figured we could just get them once we got into Lauderdale. Well, we land, get to the car rental place and the reservation system is down. It is now 6pm Sunday night, we wanted to get settled in and have a restful nights sleep before we meet everyone on Monday. They assure us the system will be up soon, so we wait. 9pm roles around and we are still waiting, we decide to take a taxi to the hotel and unpack, then come back when the system is back up. The car rental place feels so bad they want to give us a courtesy ride to the hotel, hold on while we get a driver for you, 10:30pm roles around and we are in route to our hotel and as we pull into the hotel my cell phone rings and amex travel tells me they have made us another reservation with someone else and we can now pick up our cars now. We turn around, go back to the airport and wait in another long line, but by 11:30pm we have out rentals and are back on our way to the Westin Fort Lauderdale, on the website the market there Heavenly Beds and that was the only thing that was on my mind at this time. We walk into the hotel all tore up looking from waiting for hours on end, as the cute bell boy is trying to figure out why we have 9 large bags, and why I keep staring at him and his chest, he loads the bags and takes us to the room. While in route we spot a total hottie, I mean muscle from head 2 toe, gorgeous face with a great smile. BritBrit and I are laughing and being loud to bring as much attention to ourselves as we can, to try and figure out if he is gay. Well we get in the elevator and I make the comment about my company and Hottie says oh you guys are here for the project, I am like great see I told you we should of dressed less gay. We chatted him up a bit and retired to our rooms, we spent almost an hour deciding if he was gay or not, turns out he is not, but likes to experiment. So I am thinking, ok so we can get him drunk, nope he is a recovering alcoholic, damn it. A year later he is a total sweetheart and has become a great friend. This is my first Tragic Moment in South FL. More to come……